6 atr

As Nial and Kevin previously articulated, I feel that my time here has oscillated between a frenzy and a drone.

My place as a student has been constantly redefined and repurposed from the time that I started school. I feel most comfortable in this mindset but also the most limited. It is easy to assume a way of thinking wherein you are basically a worker bee.

I have not felt out my role as a teacher. At this point I feel that I am going through the expected motions. I have only taught one lecture here, it went well but I did not feel any different after than I had before. I think the teacher mindset is really just a 180 from the student one, populating the power instead of being subservient to it.

Independent scholar is probably my favorite mindset. I have always placed high value on striving to be self reliant and there is no pursuit more independent than digging through the library stacks in search of knowledge.

Research collaborator is a mindset I can say I have hardly inhabited and don't know much about. I suppose this only goes as an example of the liberal arts people to work independently. I have never liked to ask someone for help, I don't like being beholden to someone, even if it is just in perception or act.

Life is complicated but trying to split everything into equal points of value will lead nowhere. So I believe that we all will believe what we want, and that the framework of it all can hardly be affected by one individual.